Currently ( June )

READING • I started Women of the Word by Jen Wilkins a couple days ago. It's been very insightful so far. I've always struggled with digging into the Bible and I've read other books in the past, but this one is different. It's actually quite helpful.

WATCHING • My mom and I recently started watching Grey's Anatomy. I tried watching it by myself in the past, but wasn't feeling it at the time. After searching through what felt like every single show that Netflix had to offer, I settled on giving it another shot. I'm glad I did, as it is a really good show and there's tons of episodes which is always a plus!

LISTENING TO • Since hearing about the sudden and tragic death of one of my all-time favorite composers/conductors, James Horner, I've been replaying his songs. He is best known for his film scores such as the ones he composed for Titanic, Braveheart and Avatar, all of which are beautiful pieces of music. However, the one I will cherish over all the others is from Casper (filmed in 1995). It's called Casper's Lullaby and I've loved it since I was a little girl. I even learned it on the piano many years ago and the fact that I've forgotten how to play it since truly saddens me. Hopefully it'll come back to me.

DISCOVERING • That things aren't always as they seem. I know that's a pretty vague analysis, but it's been ringing true in a few different areas of my life lately. Be it good or bad. This quote sums it up perfectly ❭ "Things are not always what they seem; the first appearance deceives many; the intelligence of a few perceives what has been carefully hidden." — Phaedrus

PLANNING • Our family vacation in a few months. It was a toss up between staying at the beach again like we did last year, or heading to Orlando like we did the year before that. Although we love staying at Disney resorts and visiting their theme parks, their prices have become outrageous. We did end up picking Orlando, however we will be staying at Universal's Cabana Bay Beach Resort. As soon as I looked up info about this place, I knew we had to stay there. It's a retro-themed hotel and it's only been opened for about a year. We're planning to visit Universal Studios while we're there too. I can't wait!

CRAVING • Sushi. No particular roll. I'd take almost anything doused in spicy mayo, ginger + soy sauce at the moment. Unless, of course, it's raw. That would just make me yack, haha. Tried it once and it's not for me.

WISHING • That I would have been less careless with my education when I was younger since I'm having to deal with the consequences now. Studying for a GED test at 25 totally sucks. And it's making me feel like a failure on so many levels.

FEELING • Anxious + a little frustrated at myself (because of what I mentioned above). But, I'll get over it. I always do.

PRAYING FOR • Wisdom and discernment. Also for God to reveal more of Himself to me as I try to draw closer to Him.


Mood Board Musings · Bedroom

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I think it's safe to say that mood boards keep my mind from exploding with ideas and I'm sure most of you would agree. These collages help me fuse together all of the inspiration I find around the web. It also allows me to see the big picture, decide what direction to take and establish an overall tone for whatever I'm working on at the moment. It's a great tool.

On Sunday, I decided it was time to tackle phase two of our bedroom makeover (phase one was done well over a year ago when I rearranged all our furniture). As you can see, this phase has taken me some time to initiate. I would like to blame it entirely on finances (or the lack thereof), but that wouldn't be true. The delay was pretty much caused by my complacency. I was okay with the way our bedroom looked for the most part. But I was reminded of how badly I wanted to change things up whenever I started reviewing the pins I had pinned to my secret bedroom board ages ago.

I've been changing things here and there over the course of the past year. That computer desk has been moved into the guestroom / office area and that space has been filled with a bookcase from Ikea. We have different bedside tables now and those black shelves have been taken down. It bugs me that I actually thought our room looked good when I took this photo. Ha. I didn't even take a minute to make the bed. What the heck. I'll be sure to fix that when I take new after photos!

I started out by buying new bedding at Target last week (shared here). From there, G and I decided that we really needed to repaint the walls. They have been turquoise for well over 7 years now. We both wanted something brighter, so we chose aqua (as seen below). We began painting on Sunday evening and we're only ¾ of the way finished with one more wall to complete. After that, we can move our furniture back into place and slowly start adding little touches until it's to our liking.

It's no secret that I'm completely obsessed with the sea and a lover of nautical trappings. Well, I'm also a fan of the whole bohemian + gypsy look and feel too. That's what I'm going for. A seafaring boho theme of sorts. Though I can't promise that I won't throw a few wild cards into the decor as my taste remains eclectic as heck. What can I say? I like what I like.

Hoping we'll wrap this whole project up tomorrow. I'm ready to see how it all comes together!


Hold Your Head Up

I have a really bad habit of looking down at the floor whenever I'm walking past other people. I'm not sure when it started exactly, but I do know that it's been happening for many years now. Yesterday, as I was walking into work, I realized I was doing it again. Head hung, eyes focused on each forward step I took, hoping that I would just blend in with all of the surroundings and no one would notice me. All of a sudden, like a rushing wind, God spoke and it was as clear as day.

"Hold your head up! I created you!"

Woah. God called me out right then and there. He called me out of my little hiding place, the place where self-consciousness reigned over me. In 7 little words, He literally broke the chain that I had allowed myself to be enslaved by. Instantly, I lifted my head up. I felt a rush with each step I took after the revelation had come. The words kept replaying over and over again in my mind. Hold your head up! Because I created you. I formed you. There is no part of you that you need be ashamed of. There is no part of you that lacks. There is no part of you that is too much to accept. I created you, so hold your head up.

I just feel like someone else may have needed to hear this today.
Hold your head up! The same God who created the universe took the time to create you.


The Price of Freedom

I used to view Memorial Day as just another holiday. The BBQ's, the parties; another day to have fun with family and friends. I've always felt blessed to live in the United States, but I would have never considered myself the overly patriotic type. That all changed whenever I lost my dad to esophageal cancer (caused by exposure to agent orange in the Vietnam War) back in 2012. Sadly, it took me losing him to become more aware of the sacrifices that were made for my freedom in this country.

It's hard to believe that June 13th will mark 3 years that he's been gone. The time has helped heal the emotional wounds of his passing, but it will never fully take away the emptiness that remains in our lives. Even though he didn't lose his life on the front lines, his time overseas ultimately lead to the disease that killed him. I wish we could have visited his grave over the weekend. I would've loved to participate in the Memorial Day ceremony that took place at Florida National Cemetery.

Freedom isn't free. It never has been, it never will be. Blood shed, lives relinquished, families left shattered in the wake of wars past and present. This is reality; a sad truth. Those are the things that should never be taken lightly; the things that we should not fail to remember. To the countless individuals who laid down their lives so that I could freely live mine, thank you.

I'd also like to take this time to give my gratitude to the soldiers who have been severely injured while in the line of duty. There are so many men and women who are fortunate enough to make it out alive, but still need lots of help once returning home. My husband and I decided to start supporting a nonprofit organization the year before last that helps veterans and aids in their recovery when they come back from war. It feels good to know we're giving back.