2012 is fleeting. Like others, I've been reflecting on all that has taken place this year. The ups, the downs and everything in between. Certain moments were teeming with happiness, while others overflowed with sorrow. Many tears were shed throughout the year, but laughter continued to echo within these four walls. There were days where sadness overcame us, but hope prevailed. Our lives will never be the same, but we're starting to settle into this new one. It'll all get easier in time.
I believe God has used the trials we've faced to strengthen me. Like a gardener; weeding out that which wasn't good for my growth, while fertilizing that which was. Looking back now, I can see how far I have come. How, by His grace, I've been able to push through and flourish. I'm so grateful for His guidance and the manifestation of His will within my life. Although I may not always understand the reasoning behind the things that happen, I still trust Him. His plans are much better than mine.
The past year has taught me that:
1. I am much stronger than I realized.
2. Sometimes pain is required with growth.
3. Change is a process and a process takes time.
4. There is no point in over-thinking situations.
5. I won't get along with everyone and that's okay.
6. Stepping out of my comfort zone isn't that bad.
I turned 23 yesterday. Normally I don't feel anything when another birthday rolls around, but this year was somewhat different. Yesterday morning I woke up feeling refreshed. Physically, mentally, but more so spiritually. I feel like God has some BIG plans for this year of my life and I'm really looking forward to seeing what He has in store. Our lives are starting to get back in order since my Dad passed away in June. Things aren't the same and they never will be.
I missed my Dad a lot yesterday. I really missed him asking me if I felt any older this year. The answer? Nope. I actually feel more full of life lately. God has been slowly changing throughout the year. He has been molding me into this person that I don't even recognize some days. Crazy, but I like who I've become. All in all, it was a great birthday. Blessed to have such great peeps in my life.
Finally had a chance to put up our little fake Christmas tree. This is our very first year without having a real one. It's different, but it's growing on me. It's cute and our kitties seem to be leaving it alone. It's nestled into a wee little spot in the living room that we now call the Christmas cubby.