Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Why We're Waiting

When are you guys going to have a baby? It seems to be the question on everyone's mind and I've lost count of how many times we've been asked. So, let's talk about babies, shall we? G and I recently celebrated our 3 year wedding anniversary (crazy, I know). Those 3 years passed by much quicker than I could have ever imagined. And, honestly, I thought that we would be parents by now. But, I'm so thankful that we aren't. You read right. I'm glad that we have decided to wait. There is still so much that we would both love to accomplish before we start a little family of our own. We're still very young and inexperienced in life.

Now and then there's an overwhelming tug at my heart and the desire to become a mama emerges. It's always been there, but more so since I became a wife. But no matter how much I want to have children, I know we're making a wise decision by waiting. It's hard enough being a young married couple. I'd still like more time to focus on our marriage before adding the pitter-patter of little feet into the mix.

So, honestly, I have no idea when we'll start a family. I used to say that I'd like to have our first by 25. I'll be 24 in December. If you were to ask me now, I would say when I'm 27-28. I wouldn't want to wait until my 30's. That's too long for me, but we'll see. There's still multiple factors to take into consideration when deciding when the right time will be. If it happens sooner than we plan, we'll still be happy. Ultimately it's up to God and I've learned to trust His timing.

I can only hope that we will be ready physically, mentally, emotionally, financially and spiritually before we have littles scurrying about. I want to be the best mama that I can be. My future children deserve the best of my husband and I. I don't want to rush into parenthood before I've had a chance to better myself. There are many lessons I've yet to learn; many experiences I've yet to encounter. So, as for now, we're waiting.

Friday, June 21, 2013

Recent Finds No. 6

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1. Liking these adorable flattened spoons turned necklaces.

2. I really like the look of this swim dress from Rey Swimwear.

3. China Glaze | Blue Sparrow. Already added it to my wish list.

4. Mykonos, Greece. I mean, c'mon. What's not to love about it?

5. The Naviglio Grande canal in Milano, Italy. Cue the swoon fest!

6. Oh, hey. My dream patio set-up. The stump seating is fantastic.

7. Lace, slightly distressed denim, cute accessories and nail color.

8. Ukulele! Call me crazy, but I'd really like to learn how to play one.

By the way, happy first day of Summer!

Thursday, June 13, 2013

365 Days Without You

Dear Dad,

It has been 365 days since I saw you last. There have been many times in the past year when I have wished that you were still here with us, but I know you are safe and happy where you are residing now. I'm glad you aren't in pain, but I miss your presence here. Life is just different without you.

I miss your hugs; a gesture that always made me feel safe. And those deep belly laughs that'd billow throughout the entire house. I miss the way you'd shamelessly shed tears while watching movies involving horses, and making fun of you for doing so. I miss the scent of Brut aftershave, even if you had a habit of putting too much on. I miss the way you would secretly sneak sweets while you were away working. Donuts and drumsticks were your favorites. I miss the way you'd jam out to Fergie's Big Girls Don't Cry when it came on the radio. You didn't care what people thought.

Some days I find myself missing our arguments too. Kinda crazy. We were just too much alike, you and I. But, you know what? I don't seem to mind it anymore. I am proud to be like you now. You taught me so much in the 22 years you were here with me. Lessons that I'll cherish forever.

Though your absence is painful, your memory lives on through the lives you touched. Thank you for being the best Dad you could've been. For loving me, accepting me, guiding me and pushing me to always better myself. I love you. Always have and always will. I will see you again, Dad.