Monday, July 29, 2013

Throw Me a Lifeline

Earlier I was telling God how lately I feel like we're in a sinking ship. As the waves of life crash over the haul, I'm afraid we may capsize soon. I'm not sure how much more I can take in this season. One wave after another pounding this little vessel of ours. We're taking on water and slowly sinking, sinking into the blue. This season definitely hasn't been the worst. It's just certain situations that keep me overwhelmed.

"I need Your help", I gently breathed out. No sooner than the words left my lips this morning, a line from a song came flooding into my mind. "Have Your way here, keep me afloat because I know I'll sink without You. Take this ocean of pain that is mine, throw me a lifeline." — In my moment of frailty and vulnerability, God let me know that He's my lifeline. He will calm the storm. I can't let this shake my faith.

I was also reminded about Jesus calming the storm in Mark 4:35-41:

That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, "Let us go over to the other side." Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him. A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, "Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?" He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet! Be still!" Then the wind died down and it was completely calm. He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?" They were terrified and asked each other, "Who is this? Even the wind and waves obey him!"
A huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I'm still learning how to focus on Jesus, rather than the circumstances and problems that arise in my life. Situations may change, but God will always remain the same.

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Currently // July

Reading: Ehh, I'm still trying my best to get through 'Safe Haven' by Nicholas Sparks. I wasn't kidding when I said that it takes me forever to finish reading a book. I have a bad habit of starting new ones without finishing up the others first. I get bored too easily. I do intend on finishing this one up, eventually.

Listening to: An album called 'Elysium' by Jo Blankenburg. If you haven't heard it, you're missing out. It's instrumental, so it might not be your cup of tea. I think it's phenomenal and can't get enough.

Thinking about: My goals. I've been thinking about getting back into sociology / psychology. I still have my old textbooks, so teaching myself wouldn't be too difficult. Both subjects fascinate me.

Watching: Fringe. Day in and day out. We're on season 4 right now. I really don't know what I'll do once we've watched them all. It has quickly become my all-time favorite television series.

Praying for: Guidance, direction and peace of mind.

Enjoying: Rekindling old friendships and forming a few new ones. Also, going back to church. I went this morning for the first time since April and it was great. It felt like coming home.

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Sea Monsters Revealed

I was able to mark the first thing off my summer to-do list today. We spent our Saturday afternoon at the Museum of Science and Industry. I had been wanting to visit their Sea Monsters Revealed exhibition for a few months now. There wasn't as many *monsters* as I'd hoped for. Garrett thought there would be a great white on display. To our surprise, there wasn't. He was kinda bummed about it, but what they did have on display was still incredibly interesting. I have always been intrigued by the deep blue sea and all of its inhabitants. At one point in time, I was certain I'd become a marine biologist in my adult life. I'm still fascinated and loved the exhibit. Wish there would've been more to explore.

Hoping you all had a nice Saturday as well!

Friday, July 26, 2013

Recent Finds No. 7

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1. Couldn't pass up this frozen thai iced coffee recipe. Looks delicious.

2. Rockabilly inspired makeup. Really liking this look lately. It's just so pretty.

3. Perfect little reading nook with book storage underneath. Cute + functional!

4. Life begins once Jesus becomes the reason you live it. — Couldn't agree more.

5. Anyone who knows me knows that I need this hoodie in my life. #crazycatlady.

6. This would be my go-to outfit. Distressed denim, stripes and Converse sneakers.

7. Was drawn to this painting for some reason. It's 'A Heavy Sky' by Clare Elsaesser.

8. My coffee would taste 1000x better if served in a grumpy cat mug each morning ;)

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Moments of Vulnerability

The other day, I started a YouVersion Bible study called Revealing Jesus with Darlene Zschech and boy, is it good. The devotionals are short and sweet, but they have been speaking to this heart of mine. On the first day, Darlene shared about vulnerability. So much truth in the words that she had written. 

I quickly filled a journal page with good points, but one thing she mentioned sunk down deep. She said that there are places, times and conditions when / where we are more vulnerable to the attacks of the enemy. She then went on to say that she needs God time, family time, thinking time and creative time for her soul to stay strong. When her soul becomes weary, she finds herself more vulnerable to waves of depression and insecurity.

In my mind I was thinking, "I deal with that all the time!" and I do. I usually call it *the funk* but now I know it's simply because I haven't been taking very good care of my soul. I've been skimping out on God time and I believe it has caused me to have no motivation for thinking, creating or even spending quality time with my loved ones. It has left me open to the enemy. It has left me vulnerable.

Since I began setting more time aside to spend with God every day, I've noticed a change in my heart and in my demeanor. No more depression, no more insecurity. Joy and peace have taken their place. I should know by now that if I'm not spending time with God, the devil is going to use it to his advantage. He's always looking for areas of weakness in our lives. He likes to sneak in and cause division between us and God.

It's so important to be aware of the various ways in which satan works against us. We need to guard our mind, our will and our emotions (our soul) so that he doesn't find a way in. I'll just leave you with this:

1 Peter 5:8 — "Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil
prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour."