Saturday, September 28, 2013

Ink, Guns + Other Things

Late night, windows down, country music blaring, rollin' down a dimly lit road. Wind in my hair, his hand in mine. Sweet bliss. These are the moments I treasure the most. The moments that push their way out of all the hustle and bustle. The moments that inspire me. The ones that make me close my eyes, take in a deep breath and fully immerse myself into before they flee.

Honestly, life has been pretty enjoyable these past few weeks. Work isn't stealing our time away like it normally does and we've been taking advantage of that. In the past two weeks I have been able to:

+ Add to my tattoo collection. I had a border added around the memorial tattoo I got for my dad. G got a new tattoo as well, but he opted for a bigger piece. An American flag that looks like it's ripping through his skin with the words freedom isn't free. Both turned out great!

+ Go on a couple of date nights. Bookstore, dinner, etc. Since we live with my mama, it's always nice to get out and have time with just the two of us! Love spending time with my boo.

+ Go to the gun range with G's dad. I shot my first .40 caliber and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. It was a Glock 22 and I was shooting better than the guys (surprisingly). Most of my shots were right on the 10. My aim has definitely improved. Next up? A .45 caliber, then comes the shot gun ;)

+ Enjoy time with my brother and his family. Family nights are always a hoot and I'm glad we've been able to keep this new tradition going. Time with my loved ones is important to me.

Oh, and this song has been on repeat ♥

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Kick the Excuses to the Curb

I think way too much sometimes most of the time. It's like bits and pieces of random musings floating around this mind of mine in a somewhat chaotic manner. Lately these thoughts have been revolving around one particular issue. Two words can sum it up, really. I can't. I've began to come up with one hundred and one reasons why I can't do this or I can't do that. It comes in waves. The worst part? It's taken me this long to realize that these thoughts have held me back for most of my life.

You see, I make excuses. Plain and simple. I have for a long time. And it has only prevented me from being all that I know I can be (with God's help). Here's a list of my top 10 excuses. Maybe some of these sound familiar to you, or maybe you've even used a few of these excuses yourself.
  1. It's too hard.
  2. I don't know how to do it.
  3. I can't afford to take a risk.
  4. Someone else has done it already.
  5. I wouldn't even know where to start.
  6. I'm afraid what people will think.
  7. People aren't ready to hear what I have to say.
  8. It isn't important enough.
  9. I have too many things going on right now.
  10. I tried before and failed.
Yep, there they are. Sadly, I've lost count of how many times these words have influenced my choices. More than I'd like to admit! I've used them for blogging, for everyday activities, for future career choices. Enough! That isn't living. That isn't putting my trust in God. That isn't using the abilities that He has given me to their fullest potential (or at all for that matter). It's time to kick this thinking to the curb! Now whenever these thoughts try to creep into my mind, I'll be locked 'n loaded with a comeback!
  1. Too hard? Nothing worth having comes easily, so suck it up.
  2. Don't know how? Well, you can learn.
  3. Can't risk it? If there is no risk, there is no reward.
  4. Someone else did it? Who cares. No one has done it like you.
  5. Don't know where to start? That's simple. Do research.
  6. Afraid what people will think? Bump that! What does God think?
  7. People aren't ready? Some people will never be ready. Do it anyways.
  8. It's not important? Everything you do and say are important.
  9. Too many things going on? Use your time wisely and prioritize.
  10. Tried and failed? Trying and failing is better than never trying at all.

Friday, September 20, 2013

8 Honest Things

1. I teeter between loving my body and loathing it. It's been like this as long as I can remember and has only gotten worse after I got married. My husband constantly reassures me that I'm beautiful and that he loves my body the way it is. I just want to be happy with myself too, dang it!

2. Sometimes I stress over money too much, even though I know that God will always provide for us. He always has in the past and He has never let us go without. I have no idea why I allow these anxious thoughts to enter my mind. Worrying doesn't solve anything. It only feeds my fears.

3. I feel as though I have to be friends with everyone. And, yes, I know that isn't possible because there will always be a select few that I won't get along with. I just don't like having "beef" with people.

4. People rarely ever comprehend my sarcastic sense of humor and I'm afraid it makes me come off as a mean individual. It's mostly for laughs and those who know me best understand and appreciate it!

5. I'm a straight up cat lady. Plain and simple. If I had the space and money to house them, I would adopt them all. No lie! I've always preferred cats over dogs for some reason. They're just so sweet.

6. My husband and I were meant to be together. It's evident in the way we get along and in our mutual weirdness. God certainly knew what He was doing whenever He placed us together.

7. I constantly catch myself speaking poorly about certain situations, people I'm not getting along with, etc. It needs to stop. My words are powerful and I should use them to speak positivity over my circumstances and uplift others.

8. I have a bad habit of comparing my life with the lives of others. This has been an ongoing battle. Some days I feel as though I've ultimately conquered it and other days I feel like I haven't made any progress whatsoever. Everyone is at different stages of life and God has my family on a separate journey.

Thursday, September 05, 2013

Forever Grateful

Hands much larger than my own. Watching the Science Channel into the wee hours of the morning. Selective hearing. The loudest sneezes in the world. Leaving his dirty socks and boxers on the floor right next to the laundry hamper. The best foot massages. Telling me that I'm beautiful without makeup on. Encouraging me whenever I'm feeling overwhelmed. He drives me absolutely bonkers sometimes, but I couldn't imagine life without him. My husband. We've been together nearly 5 years come December. I have enjoyed watching our love as it has changed, as it has grown over the years. I love the way he constantly inspires me to accept myself as God has made me. I love the way he wraps me up in his strong arms, giving me safety. I love who I am when I am with him. But most of all, I love him because he loves me. Even on my bad days. Even when I take life too seriously. Even when I'm not much fun to be around. Even when I am too hard on myself. He reminds me that I am free to be myself and that will always be more than enough for him. I'm forever grateful for that.

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

Trying to Make a Comeback

Well, I realize that it's been a long time since I last shared anything around these parts. Though I refuse to apologize for being mia since, well, I've been too busy actually living life to blog about it. And that's always a good thing! Ever since August rolled around, time seems to have hit a slippery slope. I mean, didn't Summer just start a few weeks ago? I doubt I'll ever get used to the years moving by so quickly.

And what the heck is up with everyone rushing into Fall already? Am I the only one who likes to wait to celebrate each season on the actual day that it arrives? For those that don't know and probably don't really care, the first day of Fall is September 22nd. So slow your roll on all that pumpkin goodness, would ya? Besides, it's still hot as heck in Florida and I cannot wrap my mind around cooler weather just yet.

The past 2 weeks have been a whirlwind of sorts. My "seasonal" job just started back up and I've been pulling 12 hour shifts since August 24th. Not to mention working my on-call job in between. Yeah, I know. Sleep? What is that? I had to refresh my memory earlier with a nice 4 hour nap. I'm not mad though. I'm still young and I thank God for providing work, whatever and whenever that may be. I can handle it.

On top of all that craziness, as most of you may know, I've been doing lots of design work lately. I have been offering full custom blog designs at a fairly low rate until I am able to build my portfolio. Web design has always been a passion of mine and I'm glad I decided to pursue it again. I love creating and I've been able to work with some very sweet ladies in the process. If anyone else is interested, shoot me an e-mail and I'd be happy to put something together for ya!